Life Lived From The Inside

I am probably one of the many who are glued to the Oscar Pistorius trial through every media channel reporting on this case. It’s an emotional trial which I’m not sure the trial should be broadcasted on television, but my heart goes out to both families, Reeva’s and Oscar’s. I can’t imagine how it may be for Reeva’s loved ones. First they have to deal with the tragic loss of their daughter, and now being in court everyday wanting justice. They probably have so many questions to ask but not even the questions are enough to bring her back. It was the two of them in the estate, and only the late Reeva and Oscar know really what went down in the early morning of Valentine’s Day 2013. The morning news on the 14 th of February 2013, news that Oscar shot his girlfriend, weren’t as shocking to me. I remembered how he retaliated at the 2012 Paralympics game when he refused to take the loss with his lose chin up. He threw a tantrum and came up with every lame excuse why Oliveria should ...

Life lived from the inside : In a relationship,don't sweat the small stuff : I have been found by an amazing man. He really is amazing to be craze in love with me, Lol! Truly special. Nothing beats being loved back b...

I have been found by an amazing man. He really is amazing to be crazy in love with me, Lol! Truly special. Nothing beats being loved back by someone you love. Someone who just loves showing you off! A man who is so sure and you don’t have to second guess if you’re in a relationship with this person or not. You are very assured where the end of this will be as intentions are crystal clear. Oh my! It’s clear hey?!…it’s clear that I have chosen! More than anything I am happy. Love is beautiful- and my B just makes love more colourful. As much as it has been an interesting journey being in a relationship after being single for more than two years, it’s weird how one was now immune to being single. I would desire to be in a relationship one day, but I was used to being single and living my life. With B being in my life, and me being in his, as much as we are alike and believe in the same things, our opinions differ, we are still different and I have been learning not to sweat the s...

My queen celebrates her 56 th birthday tomorrow and I am so honoured to have her as my mother. The memories I have of this beautiful woman who seem to age so gracefully are too many to count. I have been through so much with her and have seen a mother who loves her children to a point that every choice she made, was made in thought of us (her children). I have come to realise that she is my best friend. I can’t make up a lot of memories when I was still an infant, but my memories of realising that she’s my mother was because she was always around me. Lol! There’s no other way to put it but as a three year old, seeing this woman who seem to go everywhere with you and take care of you, kind of makes you recognise that this person is your mother. I remember the day offs from work she took to be with me at day care when it was my birthday. I would be the VIP for the day and she would have brought all my favourite goodies including cake with my name on it. Many don’t know that...

What a year it has been! December is a month where I reflect on how the year was and also plan things that I need to do next year. This is the first festive where I was indoors most of the time. As much as I love great company, this festive was different for me. I was more happy being alone reading than being out and about. I have never stretched like I did this year. A year that started so well. I could see the light at the end of the tunnel, I was able to see it in January 2013. Hopeful as I was, and very detailed, I wrote the plans down, my 2013 plans. The year started with a new year’s lunch with friends, good food and great conversations, more my style! Mom likes to say “If God could show us the future, we would not make the decisions we make because we would have seen that’s not the best direction to go”. If I knew that 2013 would be a benchmark year for me, I would have asked God to be a little easier on me, so I stretch slowly by a year, and not by a month. The lig...

I don’t even know where to begin picking up the pieces or letting go of the pieces I thought were needed to add the puzzle called my destiny together. This has been one of the years where I realised I don’t know anything! Yes, Forgiving God! I thought I’d be married now, on to my second qualification; having beautiful children calling me mama; having my own house, not very big, however have a room with a beautiful table and chair to inspire me to write whenever I walk in it. I had it all figured out and to me I don’t think I was being demanding to God! Now here I am, 20 something and I am not where I had imagined to be. I got a job this year which was a step up for my career and paid really well. A month later, the whole teams’ contracts including mine were terminated simply because client decided they don’t want to work with the company I was working for. My first thought was why did God give me this job to have me home a month later? But I knew something will come up sooner...

"Marriage is not between people who love each other only, but people who cannot live without each other."   Relationships are simple yet so complicated. Something that is easily applied by me does not necessarily mean it’s going to be easily applied by the next person and it will work wonders for them. There’s really no formula to relationships, but you just don’t mess around with the matters of the heart hey! Will you still be here with me after the honeymoon is over? Will you still dance to the rhythm of our heartbeats when the music stops? Will you still love me even when I’m unlovable? Those are questions I have been asking myself over the last few weeks. Do I desire to be with the one who gives up on me or who has committed to be with me despite the wrongs I make or how many times I mess up! '   Every relationship has a honeymoon phase. Where all is bliss. Where the both of you feel where has (s)he been all your life because I’ve never been happier,...