Will miss home BUT I cannot wait for what’s ahead!
So I’m getting married in a few months from now and I’m
thrilled! Very excited, been planning and transitioning all this year and I am
looking forward to be married to my best friend and one man I’m very attracted
to. Happy times! Not only am I getting married, but I am permanently moving
from Johannesburg to Durban. I’m glad I never get to experience winter again as
Durban is one warm place all season.
I was reminded by my bestie how I’ve always desired to move
from Johannesburg and as much as I am not moving to the provinces I desired to
live in, I am surely leaving Johannesburg as I always desired to. I needed
change in my life. Johannesburg was not working out for me anymore. I didn’t
fit anymore and it felt like my time in jozi has expired. I remember one point
I was applying for all the missionary trips around Africa just so I move and
experience other places…and food. Now I’m finally moving, I realised how much I
am going to miss home. Soweto is home, my family, friends, and most memories
were all created in Soweto, just having an effortless daily routine, knowing
when I leave home, I will see a familiar face of my neighbour are some of the
things I’m going to miss.
Three years back I
started being disciplined in how I invest my time, and I made sure most Sundays
and family holidays I am home because I knew a time will come where I no longer
get to see them as often as I used to. I am glad I prioritised family when I
needed to as it strengthened bonds and made us create memories together.
§ Quality time with my mother and lil sister…Every Day
I am fortunate to have been able to spend most time with my
mother. Every night, I looked forward to her coming home from work so we can
eat supper and watch our favourite TV programmes together. As much as sometimes
we disagree on TV channels and what to watch, most times we didn’t fight over
the TV remote because we both love the same TV programmes. I am going to miss
our laughters together and the many stories she always shared with my lil
sister and I every night. At times, she comes home very tired to just eat and
go straight to bed but would still spent time with us before she calls it a
night. I am going to miss that. I am going to miss her cooking, our lunch dates
together end of the month, watching movies together and our team work, I did the
laundry and she ironed it.
I’m going to miss my
little sister. I have never in my whole entire life met someone as sweet and
loving as my little sister Tamara. She’s so special to me. I am always spoiled
by her and she is always ready to help out. What I love about her is the
respect she has for me. Not once have I argued with my sister or heard her
shout at me. No matter how upset she is, she always knows how to control her
emotions. She’s so amazing. I am going to miss her singing. She loves music and
loves to dance. I am definitely going to miss her dancing in front of the
mirror and practicing new dance moves (she’ll probably say the same thing about
me because somehow, we both love dancing in front of the mirror).
§ My bestie…Tinyiko
God is a restorer! To think a year back, I had asked for a
break in our relationship because I felt it was getting toxic and there was not
respect anymore, little did I know how God is going to restore my friendship
with Tinyiko. This year has truly been the best year of our relationship. Out
of the laughter and the smoothie drinks we enjoyed, I loved the prayer times we
spent together. Those are amazing. I am going to miss leaving home and walking
to her home for a quick visit that ends up being a 6hour visit, or more! I am
going to miss taking walks with her and having deep conversations with her while
envisioning a great life in the future. Oh we dreamed! We never limited
ourselves. We always ended up at conferences with no money but somehow we
always managed to get home. I am more disciplined but Tinyiko is just a faith
stirrer. I don’t know whether to call it that or a chancer, whichever way, it
always worked to our advantage.
What I loved is how
God gave us the grace to be able to allow the next person to transition and not
be clingy whilst the other is trying to build a life with their future spouse.
As much as time was given for us to transition, I am still going to miss her so
much. Love her.
§ Kota (Bunny Chow)
By now you know my love for food. I am going to miss Ntsitsi
kota. The first time I tasted Ntsitsi kota from Diepkloof was in high school. I
was in Grade 10 and they have never disappointed me ever! They sell the best
kota ever in South Africa. Yes, I’ve not yet tasted every kota from other
provinces but only Soweto masters kota and the best one is Ntsitsi. This place
is up the road from my home and walks with friends to this place are always a
bliss. Eating it with a loved one is even more special, it just brings us
together and reminds us of our roots, lol!
§ My home church, Grace Bible Church
I am very sceptical about visiting other churches. Even
after it took me a while to visit Grace, when I did go, I knew at that moment
that I had found my new home where I will be fed and grow spiritually. I am
grateful of the sound teachings I received from church. The friendships I
gained, the work experience I was given, all will never be taken for granted.
It is my second home. I belonged. I had fun.
I’m going to miss the
Grace Young men as well. A thought of them just reminded me of a wedding I attended
and most young men from church were there. When it was time for the gutter to
be thrown, they sat on their chairs as though they was glue on them…and they
are single! Lol you gots to love them! I know they always thought I’m picking
on them but I just loved letting them know that they take time to seal the deal
that they end up being friendzoned! Jokes aside, I am going to miss how patient
they are and always sweet and loving.
I am going to miss
the worship team. They are amazing, always putting their best foot forward and
knowing the difference between performing and ministering. Ill also miss the
guy who always dances for the Lord in front during praise and worship every
Sunday at church. I would look at him, how happy he always was to dance for His
Lord. Whether it’s cold, or hot, or rainy outside, he is always the same,
dancing for the Lord in front, minding his own business and doesn’t care what
the congregants will say. I’m going to miss my spiritual father and Dr Mathole.
Their passion in preps for their teachings. How Bishop Sono is such a father
even in his teachings. I have grown from what the Lord has entrusted them with.
These and more are some of the things I will miss. I must
say I look forward to moving. I believe my destiny is bigger and when the move
needs to happen, it needs to happen. I am looking forward to doing what God has
called me to do in Durban and what He is going to do in my marriage. I am
looking forward to living in the land God has given me, moving from all that
has been familiar all my life. In fact, those that know me already know that in
heart and spirit, I have already moved, now I am just passing time in jozi and
it has never been the same ever since I visited the land God has given me.
I really enjoyed reading this. Woww! What a move....breaking up with your bestie on agreement cos the friendship was getting toxic. Ai le deep.
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